September Update - Cancellations and Moving Forward

So, I should first apologize. I was trying to make a very big video on the history of Dragon Ball Z Kai’s English dub for months now, but it ended up getting canceled due to stress, an inability to manage my project and work with others, and feature creep. People might be wondering why exactly a silly little video essay / retrospective would get me so wrapped up, but it’s because the project was supposed to be an outlet of my feelings regarding death, namely Akira Toriyama and my late grandmother. I associate that show with youth, and it’s given me a space to reflect on my attachment to Dragon Ball through multiple stages of my life.

However, the project got too big. This is an idea I’ve had for many years, but details kept changing. Kai getting another airing on Toonami Rewind threw a minor wrench into that. An idea for a closing sequence fell apart due to a lack of interest. I was unable to edit the entire thing on my own, so I had my partner and another friend, GangstaLuigi6, help with certain sequences. The closing one was the hardest one, the part where I actually recount where I was when my grandma passed, when Toriyama passed, and how I feel now. I think people can understand why.

This has been a big cause of stress for me, and I ended up having to cancel my patreon because of this. But supporters who did donate during the production of the video have been named in the description of the current upload.

I don’t know if I’ll revisit the topic now. I’ve put too much stock into it, but I might be at a point where I need to hang up the analytical brain, at least for now. I’m not going to sect off the part of me that wants to explore video essays in spite of what I do professionally, namely because it seems like both parts of me can’t coexist, but I’m stubborn enough to do it anyway. I’m also stubborn enough to know that I will eventually re-work this and streamline it into a format that won’t pull my hair out. However, many real life responsibilities and having to care for others close to me, online or otherwise, has made the sheer act of creating draining.

I’m going to instead focus more on art. I think it’s just a sign. I’m still working on my FRAGMENTS project with Jay, but it’s not ready to be shared yet. I have an idea to make an animatic but I need to actually learn SBPro first. There are potentially shorter videos I could make but until I get my audio setup properly working, that’s on ice at the moment. I’m hopefully going to also freshen up my site and begin on making my resource list public.

In addition, because of the audio setup being nonworking I cannot say when the KashCast will return, or INDIECember 2024 with ArtieceTB. I'll do my best to move forward.

Thanks for the support, thanks for understanding.